Lil Happy Lil SadLil Numb

[lil happy lil sad:]
Imma break down soon
In the same old room
that I always do
I feel so alone
make some beats and smoke
pray I make it soon
pray they buy my shit
cause I'm so damn broke
girl, I'm so damn cold
I might freeze to death
rollin up some dope
smoking trees for stress
fuck the life I had
I don't want it back
fuck the friends I had
they just made me sad
now it's me and her
bout to fuck the world
we don't need no help
we came up from dirt
I still hate myself
that's a side of me
wanna kill myself
and I've tried I'm weak
mom would drive me in
every time I did
I would ask to leave
and they'd give me pills
that shit on repeat
every other week
they would numb me down
till I couldn't speak
[teen pregnancy:]
lay me down
I don't wanna die
I can't sleep alone
need you here tonight
you were everything
you were my god damn life
now its all fucked up
and I won't sleep tonight
I was snorting pills
you were up all night
I swear I couldn't feel
I was so damn high
liquor in my blood
you were all I want
I gave you everything
I feel so unloved
you finally got exactly what you want
you were off getting fucked and I was so fucked up
fuck the wedding ring fuck this life I lead
got me feeling numb doing bumps off keys
I don't wanna live
tried to kill myself
girl I'll numb you too
take your life as well
I wanna watch you bleed
she gets numb for me
let's kill ourselves
so I can sleep