Falling In ReversePopular Monster

yeah
I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze
I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway
everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah
I battle with depression, but the question still remains
Is this post-traumatic stressin' or am I suppressing rage?
and my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
yeah, it's not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay
yeah, I struggle with this bullshit everyday
and it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage
It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
'cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular monster
I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze
every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I replace
I'm in a race against myself I try to keep a steady pace
how the fuck will I escape if I never close my case?
oh my god, I keep on stressin', every second that I waste
Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take
but my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage
yeah, it's not a fucking stage, I just wanna feel okay, okay
motherfucker, now you got my attention
I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missin'
and what if I were to lie, tell you everything is fine?
every single fucking day I get closer to the grave
I am terrified, I fell asleep at the wheel again
crashed my car just to feel again
It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
'cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular fucking monster
yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, oh
we're sick and tired of wondering
praying to a god that you don't believe
we're searching for the truth in the lost and found
so the question I ask is, yeah, where the fuck is your god now?
'cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular monster
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster